Pre-diabetic And Still Want Cake

Until recently I used to find it difficult to name my favourite food but not now.

I love a Sunday roast with all the trimmings, including Yorkshire puddings. I love a sausage sandwich and a burger with lots of onions. I love Chinese food particularly noodles and I love pasta dishes, (when I was younger I wanted to marry a cook), and then I discovered Mills & Boon romances, and a chef on a white horse? No the image just didn't do it for me.

It wouldn't be right to not give a shout out to my mum. My taste buds tingle even now at the memory of her chicken curry. For a vegetarian, she always got it so aromatic and flavourful. Her curries and mine will be for another blog.

Now, if it was my very last meal (because I'd done a dastardly deed for real, not in my fiction), I would not choose anything savoury. Hoping the authorities wouldn't be 'tight' on me, I'd check/request that my plate, tray or table would be a supersize one, on to which my beloved would be ladled, spooned, or dished. So, a deep breath and starting with apple pie and custard, I'd continue with my list until told I'd gone beyond the prison's budget or just ordered to stop.

This I had in Knutsford a few weeks ago.
Apple Crumble with cream. Had it been with ice cream the sweetness would have done damage to several areas of one's, ahem, physique, one of which is the face.


This muffin with shop bought blackcurrent jam is just a sample (the picture was taken quickly because it kept nagging me to eat it), of a lovely friend's baking. Just like its brothers and sisters it was oh-my-actual...so yummy. I told myself I would share them but I ate four. As a result, I had spots galore.

This dessert I had recently at a pub in Newbury Park. Under all that syrup the apples were a perfect blend of sweet and tart.
Much as I felt guilty about not eating it all (I wasn't paying for the meal), my taste buds actually rejected it.

Wouldn't it be nice to eat all of the above without repercussions? I used to be able to with negligible weight gain. But now it is a dream.

I love our NHS and am very grateful for it. At the last annual maintenance on me, the tests showed my cholesterol and sugar levels were too high. I am now pre-diabetic and have to watch everything I eat and drink.

It's tough when you've a sweet tooth. Sugar in my tea, cakes with my tea, biscuits with or without tea, etcetera. Plus, when I am writing, I snack. Its as if my brain won't engage with my fingers unless my mouth is being rewarded!

After searching the internet and discussing my 'condition' to death, I'm currently experimenting 'mix and match' with artificial and natural products to sweeten my drink/food in order to meet my cravings.

See my Stevia plant? I'm loving its sweet leaves but when I soaked them in water...I couldn't stand the look or taste.

Natvia: I have to add about a quarter spoon of granulated Tate & Lyle to make it palatable. In fact it enhances the flavour of my morning coffee, but in tea I still find it 'not right'.
Xylitol: This I'm fine with but it does mean more trips to the bathroom, so it's being used sparingly.
Stevia Sweetners: These don't do it for me. The taste lingers on my tongue for ages.
Honey: I love this but it increases my sugar levels and so am only using it as a treat.

I can't resist fruit but am cutting down on it. I've tried coconut sugar too. It was very expensive and delicious with a sort of caramel taste, but one of the worst ones for someone with my diagnosis.

This is an incredibly delicious lemon cake that another friend who makes cakes the traditional way (without cutting back on anything), made for me. It doubled the rash on my face and so I was forced to find a kind soul to take it off my hands. My nice neighbour came to my aid :)



Another session with the diet nurse soon. Let's hope the levels are lower.

Writer Aspiring To Be A Gardener

When I downsized, I had a tick list of what I wanted. As a writer of fiction, I pretty much was able to conceive getting everything my heart desired.

One of my ‘I would like’ was to have a smallish garden. And in that garden I would grow pretty flowers, plants and vegetables.

It wasn't to be. What I have is a back garden that is mostly flagged, badly, and very ugly. The above picture is of somebody else's. 

Another 'I would like' was a solid raised bed (to bend over without wrecking my back), in which to grow lots of yummy, healthy vegetables easily. However, this is England and it does rain a lot. And because costs have to be contained, compromise is the only way I could have the cake and eat it too. A brick construction was too expensive, so I opted for a wooden one. The price for a ton of soil was an unpleasant surprise too, but I was already committed.

I planted onions, potatoes, garlic, salad, and turnips. The onions were beautiful. The seven potatoes I pushed into the soil produced a very pleasing amount for a beginner. The mixed salad leaves grew faster than I could eat them. The garlic disappeared and caterpillars stripped my turnips of their leaves.

Lots of sun, wind, rain and months passed, and finally it was time to harvest. So I got out there with alacrity and returned inside with similar speed.

Woe is me, why is my soil crawling with black flies? I asked aloud.

The answer wasn't quite, 'Fear not my child,' but near enough. My digging on the internet resulted in reassurances such as, I had nothing really to worry about but I could treat the problem, or let nature take its course. I chose the latter.

It is now Spring and I have noticed that my raised bed's planks are not as sturdy as before and it wobbles, probably due to the amount of water in the soil etcetera. I am not going to think about having to scoop and tidy away a ton of soil if the thing collapses.

I wonder what 2020 has in store for this amateur gardener and writer of creative fiction? More of my Vicious Vignettes for definite. There's three collections so far. I love writing those because they're fun and perfect for everyday life. Or maybe I should just run away? But I haven't a clue where to and of course that isn't the end of the story.

Things Fell Apart

Posting after a very long time.  It is hard to know how much to divulge so I'm going to keep it short and sweet. The last one, in September 2016, was a positive one on work being done on my house and how everything was oh-so-great. It turned out that I was living in cloud cuckoo land...

Suffice to say, the builders weren't the best. It turns out they had small print unseen by me. I made assumptions based on what they told me. I didn't ask for clarifications, references, recommendations etc. And to cap it all, every time I was asked for money, I handed it over with alacrity. Silly me. One day I woke up to the realisation that very little money remained from the quote compared with the amount of work still to do.

That's when, to use a cliche, things went pear shaped.

All-in-all, from the builders starting work in August and the legal parting of ways between us in March, it's been a horrible experience, with loads here remaining unfinished. Either because they just didn't do it, or what they did do, is hard to fix/make good.

I was fortunate enough to find a great joiner. He is constantly in demand and I'm at present waiting for a free slot from him. There are jobs inside and outside that weren't finished by the builders. A few that I've asked him to do the next time he comes are skirting boards and architraves. The outside ones such as sealing gaps between walls, I'm going to try and tackle. All I need is "a small aubergine"... I love Goodness Gracious Me. Actually there will be a step ladder involved too!

They say Karma is real. I don't want to wish bad things on anyone. Neither do I want the bad people to continue getting off without repercussions. I believe in Karma. Perhaps in putting out this post will free me to continue writing creatively and the daily procrastinating will come to an end.

The Manner/Manor To Which We Become Accustomed

When I was little, (I'm not especially tall now), I aspired to being a good wife to the husband my parents would find me, become independent of them, have a really lovely house, and around five children. It was the typical dream for Indian females of my era. I believe, for many it still is their future, even those achieving excellence in academia.

Arriving in England, having no extended family, even though I wasn't cognisant of it, my mindset was changing. Starting infant school I was fortunate to be 'adopted' by a couple of older girls who lived a few hundred yards from me. As I learned English, I read. The more I read, the more I knew I wasn't like the other Asian children.

Anyway, I grew up. I married. I disappointed my parents. And got on with my very strange life; a mix of British and Asian. English is my first language and Punjabi my second. With my feet firmly planted in two cultures, I feel very privileged.

My last house was big, with an even bigger garden. The house that I've moved into a few months ago is less than half its size. I haven't been able to call it home; not yet.

There's a lot of work going on here. Some I can do myself and have been doing, but the larger projects are paid for others to do. The bathroom is very oddly shaped. Tiny too.  It had to be plastered and tiled and a new suite put in. Had my dad still been alive, it would have been fun trying to do it with his help.

However I did peel off wallpaper and ceiling stuff and used a hammer and chisel thingy to get the cupboard that used to house the immersion tank, out.

Hopefully by Saturday, the roof will be on the extension and the rain not washing the floor tiles, and then by the end of next week...

The very important thing is that I like the workmen that are doing the work. I know I'm qualified as a communicator but I'm also very easy to get on with. But just like life, love and friendships, it is a two-way street.

I'm going to be happy when the work is over and the guys are all gone, however, when the work is done and the house finished, I'm going to miss them all.

All I Want Is Cake

Birthday time.

Last year, same as the last few, I asked for gift ideas. The reply was a reasonable sort of all I want is a cake...

It's never quite as simple as that.

After hours had been spent researching favourites on-line, such as music, films and fashion, I decided that for this 21st birthday, it had to be more than just memory building. So it had to be all three. Preferably homemade.

Aladdin is the film for my little princess. So it would have to be Jasmin's palace. There's a lot of information out there. Did I have grief in planning etc? Well, imagine giving birth :). I remember nothing.

She wanted a chocolate cake because she hates icing coated cakes. So my usual covering and decorating with fondant was out.

I made two cakes; a palace needs size and height. A Madeira (it's firmer) for the base because it had a lot of weight to hold and for the top, my normal sponge that I knew everybody loved.

During the decorating I encountered the usual sort of problems to deal with, such as leveling.  Otherwise everything proceeded smoothly until I tried making the pillars. Neither the sponge or the Madeira wanted to be manipulated.  They had to be small, yet big enough to hold the (chocolate-coated xmas baubles) minarets. I tried baking in egg cups but they refused to come out. Shaving bits off? Nope, the stuff crumbled. 

Becoming frustrated I admitted defeat and decided to make do with the most reasonable ones. As I spread the chocolate ganache, I may have eaten a bit here and there. Towards the end I used tooth picks etc to not only position but also hold the pillars up. 

From start to finish, including taking the cake down to London, took around four days. Disclaimer; my memory isn't brilliant so it could have been more.

The fun part was eating the left over carpet. While I'd like to say I made the figurines, I reckon the truth would out.

Those of you who know me, know that I'm a great exponent of the old ways. Cards made by hand, clicking those knitting needles, looping and twisting cottons and wool with one hook etc.  Things that use up time, to me are very meaningful. After all, what is the most valuable thing you can give anybody? It shows that you care.

It was worth spending weeks on this cardigan for her. I can only crochet but am hoping to learn to knit. The look on her face said it all. Plus the gratifying 'you made this?' And 'Will you make one for...?' from others was rather reassuring.

We took her to see The Lion King and she loved it. I enjoyed it. She wants to see it again this year. I don't. Hm...

It's just a matter of weeks before birthday time and I have no clue on what to do!

Am I Early?

Come on...this is me and the likelihood of my blogging early is like...well, like knowing I've been misbehaving and still believing Father Christmas is going to leave me a fantastic present.

'What was that you said?  He doesn't - surely not!' (I'm being very careful not to overdo the exclamation marks. Apparently women and children do. Yes, I know what my gender is, but I actually find that spotting one per page is more than enough).

The work on the house is progressing. Yippee. That could be misconstrued but I'm not being sarcastic. And, even better, a few weeks back I even managed to upload Vicious Vignettes, my ninth book.

'Yes siree, it feels mighty fine to me.'

I started work on it many moons ago when wondering whether anyone would ever come along to buy my house. Originally a collection of flash fiction, it was going to be the sequel to She Dreamed Of Flash Fiction, with every story only 200 words. However, somehow, as I edited some of them started to rhyme. This was a tad baffling. I've always cringed at the thought of writing poetry and whenever I did, I kept my head down and mumbled as I read it aloud. The other side of the coin is that I love reading it, often the same ones over and over. But writing?

'Nope...not me, gov'nor.'

In this anthology, being mean about life, people etc wasn't what the intention was. It just happened, leaving me with no choice other than to change the book's cover and the title.

'Anyways...hope someone out there will like them.'

I am going to stop now because my tub of delicious jalapeno houmous is empty. So it's bye for now.

NEW HOME

I'm here. I'm in.

I've been here and in this house for almost three months.

Can't make any comments on whether it feels like home. Which means it doesn't. Hopefully once I've got a bathroom, kitchen, perhaps even a television? I'm doing plenty of d.i.y. but not as fast as I'd like. I get very annoyed at myself when the day has run out and jobs that in the old days I would have finished, I no longer can.

As to external help, there has been some from a few family members and some friends and I am very, very grateful to them. Their company has kept me sane and that has to be good for everyone. Yes?

Different house can be awfully lonely.

Getting quotes for work is like... I can't use the language appropriate to describing how I feel. After all, this blog is not adult rated :)

Bye for now.